Do we read blogs anymore? Do we read anymore? So much has changed over the last decade. I know personally I have. I am absolutely not the same person I was just 5 years ago, much less 10. And that is not even getting into young mama Rachel. But here we are. I am writing. You are reading. And for some reason the Lord has us both here.
Writing has always been my favorite. No matter what stage of life I am in, I love it. When I am doing it consistently, I can’t wait to get back here again as my mind is racing with things I want to share. When I am not writing, I have mental list going of things I would if I was. But Satan is quick to remind me that I am just a 40 year old (I can officially say that now- 40 became official this past weekend!) mom in Arkansas – why on earth would anyone want to read what I have to say? And I push this back in my mind (you know back with every embarrassing thing I have ever done. And weight watchers) and pretend its not on my mind. I am quite the queen of pushing it away. But we all know that’s not how things work if the Lord sees it differently. And here we are again. The Lord is much more powerful and tells Satan to sit his ugly butt down and let me do what He really wants me to do HA!
I say all that to say – I am back again. For the umpteenth time. I do this. I am an enneagram 7 – always moving on to the next bigger idea, getting bored with the last. But for some damn reason, I am always brought home. The only consistent. Home is here. Writing, rambling, and sharing to other like minded women. The only difference this time is I am mature 40 year old woman. Dear Lord. I can’t even type that and not laugh my ass off. But what that really means is that I know myself all too well and managing expectations – just like I do with my teenagers. I used January as a time of reflection (aka getting my shit together) praying and planning what I wanted this to look like. And I have to come to the plan of one blog a week. Not sure what day it will be yet – but it will be once a week for the rest of this year. Surely I can do that!? What will be rambled here? I don’t know yet. But I am going to trust the process and let the Lord work through my keyboard and share what we all need.
I have been praying and journaling – trying to figure out what the Lord wants me doing. I worked in corporate America for most of my adult years, climbing the ladder and kicking ass. Until one day I didn’t want to any more. Then the Lord dropped opportunities in my lap to make it possible for this working mama to go home and be a full time mom. Some of those opportunities flourished, some got re-prioritized, others are gone. But I found myself starting 2021 asking myself what am I doing? I have a full plate with three kids, three puppies, and all the things that come with those priorities. Oh yeah and a husband HA! 2020 sucked in epic proportions and I found myself taking a much needed break from all social media. Not gonna lie, I didn’t hate it. I needed it bad. Many reasons I needed it – one being I needed to see if I was to give up this dream of blogging, “influencing”, and utilizing social media as more than a place to share my kids and dogs – would I be ok with that? Honestly, I don’t know that I know the answer to that question – but I do know that the Lord made it very clear He wanted me to give it another shot – and different than ever before. Realistically (not my strong suit LOL). I still don’t know what this looks like – but here is what I do know.
We don’t have to know all the answers. The Lord never said He would make things perfectly, crystal clear. He asked us to do three things (these were in my devotional this morning if you saw my stories 🙂 ):
Rejoice always. Pray constantly. Give thanks in everything. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)
That’s it. If we can manage that, He has the rest. Trust to the max. So for the hundredth time He put that verse in front of my face and it brought me here. As I said 2020 S U C K E D – but one thing I did learn from it is that there is always enough time to do what the Lord is practically shouting from the heavens to us – when we prioritize it. Maybe you are better than me and prior to 2020 had your priorities straight – but I didn’t. No matter how many times I try, how many excuses I make, or how uncomfortable it might make me feel – He continues to show me that I need to take this thing with a blog and a keyboard and my ability to ramble – and do something with it. I am not some special chick – all of us have these things that He is asking of us. What are you avoiding? What is constantly being pushed back in your mind that you know needs some love and attention? Yours will look completely different than mine – we are all loved and graced with the Lord’s precious plans. I want us to join together in 20freaking21 and not overthink it or worry ourselves to death over every detail. Instead give it one more hell of a try – and rejoice, pray, and give thanks to Him. Simple enough? Easy? HELL NO. But what if this time, we really just trusted the process and did it? I will do it, if you will. Even if there is only half a dozen of you feeling this – I will commit to this weekly meet up on boldedbyrb.com…rejoicing with you, praying for you, and giving so much thanks that you clicked on a link that brought you to here to this 40 year old mama in Arkansas typing and rambling :).
RB is back.